Searching for College Motivation

{Me in High school}

I haven't shared much of my school life with you so I wanted to let you in.

So here it goes, I am struggling with school. I don't have the motivation for my classes.
I study and do the assignments but it isn't enough.
My grades don't show the work I put in. 

At the young age of 17 when I graduated High School I knew in my mind that I definitely

wanted to move out and be independent while going to college.

My ACT scores were not high enough to apply to go to BYU, the school I had dreamed about.

Which meant they also were not high enough to get in to the University of Utah.

I applied to Snow College and tried out to be on their Student Leadership team,

although I didn't make the cut they offered my a position on their service

board they had up their. I was honored since I hadn't even prepared for the leadership tryouts.

Snow College was my plan, I would have the opportunity to move out,

my cousin Elise was already planning on attending there...it was perfect the only

problem was only pay a portion of my tuition would be funded for me being on the board

and I had NO MONEY saved and neither did my parents.

My Peer Leadership Team teacher told me about a full ride scholarship opportunity

to Salt Lake Community College for being on their Peer Action Leader board.

I applied and was accepted! It was a miracle.

I felt like the opportunity had been handed to me by my Heavenly Father and

even though I really wanted to be out on my own, I knew their was no way me or

my family could afford it. I enjoyed my first year at Salt Lake Community College

with all the opportunities I had been given to serve, it was a blessing.

After that first year the scholarship wore off and I was left on
my own finding money for college.

I refused to get a loan and to this day every class I have took has been paid for.

I chose to only take a couple classes at a time so I could focus on other areas in my

life like working lots to afford school, preparing for pageants to help earn me

some scholarship money while teaching myself different talents in between.

It has now been 5 years since I have been attending this Community College

and I am at the point where I feel stuck. I am attending to get my associates degree in

Elementary Education with hopes to transfer to the University of Utah.

I still need Biology, Math 1010, College Algebra, Social science
 and 5 more education classes. I know that is not a whole lot but
some days I wonder if I will ever be done.

Some days I wonder if I really want to be a school teacher.

I need motivation for school. Motivation to do better and care more about my grades.

Motivation to put the other things in my life aside so I can get through the 2 semesters
I have left. It is sometimes so hard to have motivation for school when people

here don't understand what I am still doing at SLCC.

If you have any tips for school motivation, please send them my way.

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